YOU WON’T BELIEVE WHAT I GOT FOR CHRISTMAS
# 31…………. (part A)……….This reply to Love’s letter # 28
Good morning dear girl .. Several years ago I did picture drawing. I see do that too. I’d love to know how you do that.
I remember when I was drawing pictures of my sister for instance, I would cry every time. I don’t know why, I just did. Apparently my amygdala tipping point is tenuous at best. God I hope I’m using the English language right. Do you ever worry about that. I’m constantly trying not to look stupid by using the wrong word or spelling something incorrectly.
Do you notice how cleverly I’m sliding into what I’m about to say. I’m saying it casually like I didn’t read the best thing I ever read in my life. If I reread it I’m going to start crying. I love that you think that about me. I think about you that way too. I think people that have experienced great trauma are the best people in the world. They would rather die than see others, that they care about, go through what they went through. You are that way also love. You make my eyes brightened with the lights when I see how beautiful your words describe things. I know I’m not supposed to be prideful because pride is a sin. Well, I’m a sinner because I enjoy like crazy the way your words make me feel.. Just so the reader has an idea of what I’m talking about, let me just copy and paste the thing that you said to me in your last letter that has me so verklempt.
James, please sit down before I say this.
In all my years of being married and in relationships, I have not seen a more genuine, vulnerable, and feeling human being as you. Do you know how many masks each of us has to wear to face it all?
You are a gem, a rare gemstone. A precious diamond that every partner is looking for.
You’re the real McCoy!
If your parents were alive today, I would head to see them this weekend and make sure to hug them tight! I will make sure they know they have raised such a wonderful man who is truly genuine and full of love that they should be very proud of. Than you said, please hug your wife, Joan, and thank her for letting you be you. I feel we will have a very lifelong friendship. There will be good and bad days in our lives but know that we can be there to talk to each other about anything under the sun and remain good friends.
(I promise to always be there for you ._)
I have a t-shirt that says — “LOOK AT ME, ALL RELIGIOUS AND SHIT !
I thought about reading your words every day, just to feel good about myself and if that’s not okay, then the hell with religion. That you would send me something like this, sent for me to feel good about myself. I think that’s the most beautiful thing that’s ever been said about me and I’m going to put this in my heart and never let it go.
