ECSTATIC PAIN
(Please play Jewel “You Were Meant For Me”
Bye-bye baby,
You don’t love me anymore
so I don’t love, even more,
and you closed your mind,
know I have my pride
and I’ll show you the door.
You may know, I’m already gone.
I left you a 100 times before.
I no longer want the love
that you wouldn’t give me.
You wouldn’t give me
what I wanted the most.
I won’t need your permission
to get what I need now.
You never saw my wounds,
you never saw me bleed.
We were not about forever,
or a rose covered cottage. I’m
Just someone who loves you, and
you should know how I feel.
Lemons make lemonade.
What you left behind is
a drug called ecstatic pain.
It’s heartbreakingly strong.
It brings me to my knees.
My tears fall like the rain
and I can barely breathe.
It’s not for the faint of heart.
It’s such a wild ride and
I can have it whenever I want.
I use it every day and
every night as well.
I guess I could stop using it
anytime I want,
maybe tomorrow, who can tell.
When I want to fly high,
I remember my life with you,
the music we heard,
the games we played,
the laughs that we found,
the joys that we had and
the lovemaking we made.
When I think of these things,
a devastating high starts again.
So many times I’ve cried in my dreams
but tears just don’t wash the pain away.
Perhaps I’m childish and yet,
now and than, I awaken with a smile
and feeling I’m truly over you………….
But then, the shivers start
and cover me from head to foot,
because I know it’s not the truth.
It hurts like hell to look at your picture,
it hurts even more to even say your name,
because every time I do,
the ecstatic pain starts over again.
It starts on its own and
it gets out of control.
You sweep over me
and I let myself go.
Emotions stronger than I am.
If I want more — — -
I play music that we loved.
The way you made me feel-
that “once in a lifetime” feeling,
I’ll never ever feel that again,
but I’ve got Ecstatic Pain instead.
Don’t worry about me,
I’m okay, I am, I am,
but I just went crazy inside, when
that song made me think of you.
But, I don’t want you anymore,
I couldn’t stand the pain
please don’t come back,
if you change your mind
and please don’t beg.
I wove my memories
into a beautiful tapestry
and I hung it on the wall.
My tapestry is of you by design
I take it down whenever
I need to think of you
and slowly lose my mind.
