Oh Genevieve – your live poetry was so beautiful. I just listened to it for a 2nd time and I can't stop crying.I love to happy cry. Who am I kidding,

I just love to cry. While most people look at crying is a bad experience, I look at it as a wonderful experience and I try to do this as often as I can.

You are such a master of wonderful ideas. I love to listen to your voice speaking that beautiful poem. The way you spoke was perfect. It would never do

for you to have a New Jersey accent talking out of the side of your mouth while chewing gum and smart ass in your way through this poem, like you have

a clothes pin on your nose.

Your soft voice added so much dimension. I think the poem itself is gorgeous but spoken by you, it is that times 10. You're going to think I'm crazy,

which I am, but I love your mouth sounds. I searched for it constantly in women speaking and singing and it is such a turn on. Do you know what I mean

by mouth sounds. As a person talks their lips and tongue and cheeks move against each other and make wonderful little sounds. Have you noticed this too ?

I don't think a person can make it happen, I think certain people just do this and I think it is so incredibly sexy. Am I the first person to ever notice this?

Would you give me permission to email you again. I've grown up a lot and I can be trusted.please don't hate emails because of what happened before.

Why don't we just pretend like that never happened. It's so painful for me but I know I could do it if you can too.

I'm going to write romantic poetry again – swear to God.

It's going to be better than ever I hope –will you be the judge sweetie ?. I'm writing about cancer right now because my brother is dying and I'm losing my mind over it.

Writing articles about cancer is the only way that I can keep my sanity. I'm also losing a friend that is really dear to me. On Facebook her name is

Candace Harmony Rivers.I'm not really a very religious guy but I was going to her for good advice and maybe just a tiny bit of Jesus.I love her a lot.

It just felt good to go to her and now I'm losing her too. ( I'm sorry Candace for being so selfish.)

I wish things between you and me, were the way they were a year ago at this time. Could we try to have that again please Gen ? I know things were

moving too fast and we were each puttin pressure on the other and there are still cracks to repair but I think about it all the time.all of the feeling is still there.