Oh boy, a long message. I love to chat. Right now I'm looking at what you said. One of the beautiful things about medium is that you can lay all of your truths out there and get it out of your system. There have been so many times that I've been afraid hit the publish button so I stopped thinking and hit the button. I will NOT allow you to shirk back into silence out of fear.
If it's fear of me, that's totally understandable. I am so abnormal in so many ways but I'm harmless I swear.
Oh no I'm not, I screwed up my friendship with Medium writer "startwithlove" real good. She said some things that were awful and I reacted in a worse way and now the friendship is blown up . That's mostly what Agnes is all about. When I form a friendship it often turns into loving friendship. Nothing inappropriate because I'm a married man and I don't play that.
But I am an extremely romantic person and that carries into friendship. When Genevieve and me had our fight I felt like shit. I've been apologizing almost daily for 2 months now.I know I'm walking in a very iffy area. I have a wife and I have a friend who is a girl. So basically I have a wife and I have a girlfriend, and I love both. Of course I've been with my wife for quite a while and I never think in terms of cheating on her in any way. But we have had discussions about the human capacity to love people. We both agreed that it's ridiculous to feel that you can only love one person in your life, your spouse. I can't live my life like that. Agnes and I had so much fun every day for months. I tell friends as well as my dear cousin, that I love them . . I tell my wife that I say those things to my friends because I do love them.
The human capacity for love is infinite. I am probably going to fall in love with you to some degree. You don't need to shrink back into silence because of fear because I am in no way a threat. My wife doesn't have a jealous bone in her body and we both feel that loving everybody only makes our lives better. I do get rather mushy sometimes because as I said I am a romantic
