NEEDY AS HELL
(Heat Waves by Glass Animals)
Please don’t be offended.
The picture doesn’t depict
actual true life for me,
it only depicts how I feel..
(I had it wrong Colleen)
When I think of myself,
I think — what about me?
If you cut me, I bleed.
If you make me angry
or hurt me, I scream.
If you anger me or scare me,
I know how to get mean.
And, if you break my heart,
I’ll see you in my dreams.
Painful convoluted thoughts
can drive you mad
if you love with
every fiber of your being.
I tried to drink you
out of my head.
Boilermakers,
tequila with lime,
Tanqueray gin,
Canadian club
and stinger after stinger
go ahead, hit me again.
I’m so freaking furious.
You are not breaking my heart
one more time again,
like you’ve done a thousand times before.
I won’t let you do it again.
Just to seal the deal,
I’ll find a stranger
with beautiful eyes.
We will make love,
but with the lights on
so no matter where my kisses lead
I will know that it’s not you,
that it’s her instead……..;
When I get home,
you and me are going to talk
because I can’t take
your kind of love anymore.
You and me are through.
That new girl I found,
she’s nothing like you, and
when I look into her eyes,
eyes that never hurt me,
eyes that never will, I know
she’s nothing like you.
I’ll be slow to say “ I love you”
and in every way,
show her by deed instead.
I’m not vengeful, but
you hurt me so bloody bad.
It’s hard to not wish you dead.
She’s nothing like you
and as toxic as you are,
deep down inside of me
I’ll love you as long as I live.