Merry Christmas Crystal

Merry Christmas Crystal

This song went through me like a shot . Do you remember it. To me this song is a sad reminder of lost hope. This is sort of like how I wished our relationship was. We used to fight and break up and I felt like I couldn’t take it anymore but then we would talk and we tried to iron out our differences . I would come home to you because I was so full of renewed belief in our marriage, that it could succeed. This song says how I felt when I came home from our , oh so often breakups.Nobody ever could’ve possibly loved you more than I did. When I felt that I had no choice but to leave you for good I almost passed.. I’m pretty sure you can die of a broken heart because I couldn’t eat or drink or move for at least a week. I was never more sick in my life . I was so devastated that we couldn’t be together but I knew it was just not possible.
I hope you are able to find what you wanted in life. I think you wanted it to be me but something inside of you got in the way. It’s Christmas time again. You died so long ago but I just want to say Merry Christmas to you Chris. There were times in our marriage that were beautiful and I would not trade that for anything. If it’s possible for you to celebrate Christmas on the other side of the veil, please think about me and the love we shared. The parts of us that were beautiful .