I'm beginning to see that the problem is with me..

What you wrote hit me like an ax. she was so wrong for me to marry but I did anyway. And now, I love her memory so much I could barely function. I wish love relationships didn't have to be so impossibly difficult. I was so naïve and she told me she was horrible and I didn't believe her. So it's all on me. I wish I had your advice at some places in my life.

I thought everything could be fixed with – ---regardless of the past we will have a bright future. How stupidly naïve was that?