I read this carefully, several times through . I am very impressed with the way that you write let me explain. As I was reading, I was a little bit confused in a few places. But then again no I was not. I tried to explain to Joan what I was reading you wrote. I found that I understood everything you are saying perfectly you have a such an interesting way of writing. I think I need to read a lot more of what you write so I can understand how you work.

I'm so sorry you are suffering.