How to break a heart

You will never forget me, no matter how hard you try. (This truly happened.)

Wait for the right moment……………You have nature on your side. He’s only 17 is still a baby and yet he’s a prisoner of puberty. So predictable it’s nauseating. You know you’re the image that he is looking for. You can see it in his eyes. Here he comes, the poor defenseless slob.
We really don’t know each other very well yet but, you seem to be smitten. Oh, you are thinking sexy already. Okay, I know how to fool you. You might think you’re having me, but it’s only in your mind. You are such a child. But you are sweet. Innocent naïve and sweet I’m gonna tear you up. I’m going to chew you up and spit you out. I can work you like a piece of putty. I can mold you into anything I want.
I’m going to make you wish you’d never seen my face.
If I play my cards right I can make this hurt for your entire life and then I know I’ve done my job.
I need to get even with the universe for being born. I hate my life and I hate anybody around me, But you will never know. I speak gently and I have a pretty face and my words are soft. My lovely words are only used to mitigate the pain that I’m going to deal you. Timing is everything.
But, I naturally gravitate towards painful things. Loose morals or even worse, implied loose morals. Things I said I did but maybe I didn’t. But I just said that to hurt you. I guess I wanted to see how much you love me. Love, ha don’t make me laugh. Oh I will tell you sincerely that I love you and make you believe it. That’s a fun game. Anything I can think of that’s painful, I’m going to do it to test you, to see how much you love me. I get a thrill when you love me still after all the things I do. I didn’t tell you until it was too late, that I took acid every day when I was pregnant and our baby could’ve been a person, but he was born sadly and cannot function. That was a wonderful move, on my part. While I enjoy that I hurt both you and our son with that clever move, I decided to seal the deal by making love with your friends while you are at work trusting me. Hey, I’ve got to get it somewhere and I’m certainly not coming to you. That would make you happy and I can’t do that.
I’m going to pretend that I have no idea why you’re leaving me. I have watched you coming apart at the seams because I refuse to make love to you. It’s fun watching what you do when you have such intense sexual desires that remain unsatisfied. The begging the pleading, the screaming, the demanding and the drinking. That’s great, he drinks all the time now because he’s unhappy all the time and now I can blame him for everything. It all happened because of his drinking. That’s a perfect excuse for me. All I have to do is hold out and not give you any sex and I get so much negative attention, and that’s what I really want — the negative attention. Oh, so you said you couldn’t take it anymore and you’ve grown fond of somebody else. Nice. I don’t mean to sound threatening or anything but you know that my brother has killed before. This Mary Lynn that you think is so nice and sweet. I hope she’s going to be okay. What I mean to say has, that I hope no harm comes to her.
(And this also happened)
I think what you want to do is call up Mary Lynn right now and tell her that you’re not interested in seeing her anymore and do it right in front of me so I can hear it all.
This is the thought that was going through my head. —” And when you’re done doing that and you’ve gone off to a bar to drown your sorrows, I’m going to soak the entire house in gasoline and light it on fire and go for a ride in the car.”
And now our home is in ashes as am I.

Yes, I put a spell on you, that you will never forget me. I am going to make you truly sorry that you ever saw my face, and worse than that. You won’t be able to get me out of your mind no matter how much poetry you write on Medium. I still have power over you, and you will always remember me.
You will remember me even when you pray not to.
Perhaps you wouldn’t agree with my life choices had you stayed with me as I died at only 39 years old. After all the pain I gave you I think part of me did love you a little bit. You know you might feel like this is your song but I am going to continue to take the rest of you because I’m alive in your mind.