Hi Julia, Your wonderful description gave me goosebumps. Your words literally inspire me to try to lift the bar higher, and try even harder somehow.

I loved the one I left,, like Spike loved Drucilla.(Buffy the Vampire Slayer).. I didn't want to muddy the poem with TMI, but it was 13 years of Hell. She was a monster. She cheated, took drugs when pregnant, and burned the house for insurance money. She totally denied me sex. She forced me to cheat because I couldn't live with her,

and god help me , for some crazy reason, I still love her. Sometimes I ache for her memory. The heart is so stupid