HALFWAY TO CRAZY
I ran for my life,
to escape my insane life.
It felt like a war zone
thanks to my troubled 1st wife.
Well brother, you don’t know what it’s like
to love someone more than your own life
and the closer you get
the harder you get hit.
She just makes you cry
some people might say,
but that’s not what I feel
when I look into her eyes
What happened to us, we were so young
I knew nothing, I was so dumb.
Everything fell apart before we got our start
and our wedding vows came undone.
I still ache about things that happened long ago.
It hurts like it was yesterday and won’t go away.
I cry about our war of broken hearts, so very
long ago, when love got in the way.
Now monsters and demons plague my sleep
I’m halfway to crazy, sometimes I think.
I still wake up screaming and other times crying.
If asked, are you okay, I say “sure” with a wink.
That kind of pain don’t go away easy.
It might start when you hear an old song.
You need to pull the shoulder of the highway
because you didn’t see where you are goin’ .
Did she love me or did she lie to me.
How big of a fool am I.
You set fire to our house — was that fate ?
Our boys brains are totally fried, you hid
all the drugs you took when they were inside
and you won’t believe what I just heard.
I guess it doesn’t matter anymore,
But, I wonder if they’re mine.
You were my darling who I still adore.
As messed up as we were,
I couldn’t have loved you more.
Friends said to stop acting cray-cray
get out, get out, get out, get out because
you are losing Jim, and
you need to find another way.
Now I’ve got a good woman.
I love her so much.
She was just what I needed.
She was a gift from above.
I found myself when she came in,
then she shows me her love and
I thank Jesus for sending her to me,
and than I say “AMEN”
