GOD, PLEASE TELL ME I GOT THIS WRONG ?
Did I play your heartstrings like a Spanish guitar and you just couldn’t take it because of who and where you are.
I guess you didn’t know how to tell me, to make it seem okay, so I wondered if little white lies, might’ve been okay.
You know how I am and I guess that’s okay too. But you came from another place and time , and my emotions are still caught in the fray.
My heart has no common sense. I’m going crazy today. I have no right…..I am history and you are the future. I look back and you look forward and
99% of my life is gone and you are not even halfway. but I have the heart of a young man and I feel every bit of the passion. I had no right to meet you as an equal but I felt a strong thunderbolt , even over a wire. I didn’t care about anything but your mind . Your mind is why I fell in love with you.
Emotions do not age. At least mine never did . When we are speaking, I am on cloud nine. But now you are never here. Wave after wave of emotion keep swelling up inside me. Everything reminds me of you . You told me it was okay to write you love letters. Did you get surprised to find out how real I was ?
Maybe if I saved you my salty tears in a jar, you could measure how much I care about you. I know you care about me too. I know you do . It must be something else , but , I can only guess.
Was it our emotional romantic poetry to each other. We are adults. We know how to handle platonic polyamory. Did your man get hurt by what I said to you . That must be it.
If that is it , please know that I totally understand Honey. I would never allow you to interfere in my life. I never wanted to interfere with yours . . But you only served to enhance my life — — — — -
and make everything better for me . I wish I could have done that for you, but I feel like I just made things more complicated for you instead . .
I am so fucking sad today, because I have actualy come to terms with you not being a part of my life very much or not at all anymore.
I fall in love too easily and I fell in love with you. I’ve got it so bad. I know I’m a fool, but if you only knew , there is a lot of power in these feelings . .
It’s a type of compliment when you think about it . How many people fall in love with each of us in a lifetime. I think it’s a special gift from God that
we touched each others lives in such a precious and loving way. You gave me gifts that I want to remember always .
Oh, Laura-If only we were born in another place and time. Maybe in another eternity on an alternate universe, who knows.
God bless You dear sweet @Lelu A., from Jim, your eternal “friend “.
I love you and I’ll probably haunt ya later, alligater.
