Drama shivers. Wheel In The Sky-Journey. Darn communicatiion. Your words are like magic. The bottom fell out of my world , again. I am climbing back out of the hole, the one that I fell in. I thought you found out who I am. I thought you said no way José.

I've lost friend after friend after friend just as soon as they find out who I am. I feared your thoughts were----- I was going to be your friend Jim, and then I found out how completely fucked up you are....

I thought you gave up on me, because you saw all my baggage. I thought I scared you and you wanted to go someplace safe because you decided that I was a creep of no value to you. I've chatted with people before and ask for closer communication by email. When that happens every single time, it's as though a curtain drops and all communication stops. Or at least close communication stops. The superficial conversation is still there but only rarely now.

But oh my, how life has changed in the last 24 hours . Two miracles in trhe past 24 hours. The last miracle was you

I felt our lack of contact was because you were bored with me. Than you wrote me today, I thank Jesus for you. You might think that is just too much, but it's not, it's not , it's not .