DEAR LAURA
I wonder if your awake right now .
I can’t sleep for thinking of you. I was just thinking of something
beautiful that you said about Candace and Bob. It’s about how I should never try to think of them
as gone unless they are actually gone. They are still here until they are not.
You are so freaking beautiful. I’ve never met anyone with such empathy and compassion for others. Right there, you taught me a wonderful life lesson. I have a tendency to take things out to its disastrous conclusion.
You helped me to see that I was doing that. By my recognizing it now, I can see how foolish I was to base my reaction for current things, on past painful drama.
I need to just live in today's moment.
Another facet of your beautiful Kaleidoscope is that you are such a friend to me, that you don’t mind slapping me up the side of my head when I’m acting stupid. You love me enough to do that. very few love me enough to do that.
A lot of guys would get angry. That would really be stupid because, if somebody likes me and then they are telling me off, I really screwed up and I want to fix it more than anything. I know how hard it can be tell somebody off, and say things that they really need to hear.
You are a kaleidoscope and I am constantly surprised by you. I’ve been around and I’m not a fool as much as I once was. We will have flaws, but everybody has flaws and I think our flaws are pretty mild, compared to the general population.
You are really something impressive in so many ways. What a privilege it is to know you and to actually literally fall in love with you. Love is such a beautiful gorgeous thing and it should never be squashed or feared or be ashamed of. It’s a celebration that you found something special in this crazy world. An emotional soulmate, a twin flame, I have no idea what it’s called but I know what it feels like. Instant communication and instant friendship and the wonderful feeling of falling into joyous love.
I can’t wait to find out more about you. It feels like my heart is literally being ripped from my chest. And You love me too. I glow inside carrying that thought with me wherever I go. I love you so much because you have made my life better in many ways. This feeling coming out of me is overwhelming. I feel like I just won the lottery. I know I really am a glutton, but I want all your time every day, but that is not possible.
Just writing poetry to you, I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off of me and I can finally breathe air. I know this sounds extremely cliché but,
Where you been all my life.?
Our stars crossed late but thank God they crossed, at all.
I wouldn’t miss this for the world .
I hope you dream of beautiful things.
Oh sweet precious Laura,
I’ve got to take it really slow,
what am I going to do with me.
I feel like I’m in a foot race,
but there’s nowhere to go.
Maybe I’m a hot rod,
but all I do is slide.
I’ve got this hot ball of lava inside to feed,
and it’s too big to hide.
maybe writing poetry is what I need.
Poetry strong as an oak tree
Opening up my doors,
and even when I sleep
it sets my spirit free
it lets the soul fly
so high up into the sky
you can touch the ones you love
whose very loss made you cry.
Poetry lets you pray
and get it all out
when you‘re feelin’ cray
and fall in love with a friend
everything about it
just totally feels okay.
With Laura, it’s the same.
I feel like Steve Urkel
just going a little insane
forever adoring and loving you
my lovely little peach blossom
I fall for you, until I’m black and blue
