CHRISTMAS DAY 2023
# 23………….A penpal letter to Love from James
I am so glad that we talk, dear girl . . Sometimes I just want to yak. I’ve looked through your writings on Medium and I can’t find your picture but, that’s fun anyway. It’s like an Easter egg hunt and you are the egg.. Merry Christmas to you Genevieve this Christmas day my dear friend . . You said somebody was downloading all of our back-and-forth letters. Do you know who it is? I think it’s very flattering when somebody likes your work well enough to download it into their personal library. That’s perhaps the highest honor………………………..
I’m going to write one more happy letter to you because it’s Christmas day today. You have to know that this is such a strain on me, to be writing only happy things. Normally I like to vacillate back and forth between writing funny stuff and then sad stuff.. But it’s Christmas time and who wants to hear sad stuff. I wish more folks in the world would just lighten up because it’s Christmas. I hope you’re enjoying a hot toddy with your guy and have that warm Christmasy feeling. Are you two are sitting on a couch enjoying each other’s company ? Yep, if I was there I would do a cannonball right in between you both just for laughs. The couch would go over backwards, and we would all pee our pants laughing .
Just for the sake of conversation, you really CAN take me anywhere and I won’t embarrass you, I swear. You can trust me, I’m a guy. Guys never lie. Thank goodness it’s only 3:30 AM. My writing lamp must go out at 9 AM.
I promised Joan I wouldn’t write all day like usual , because it’s Christmas. I already wrote a pretty good thing this morning but I can’t use it because it’s kind of sad. I absolutely love to write heart wrenching material. It’s extremely therapeutic. I rather would rather write that way most of all. Something inside of me needs to come out and be expressed and I give it free reign. However, you and I agreed that it’s Christmas, so let’s lay off the sad stuff. However on December 26, I’m gonna make you cry. It will be pitiful.
Let me just cut to the chase Love.. Since I met you, I wanted you to be my friend very badly. I’m a very emotional chap. In so many ways, you are literally the answer to my prayer. I’ve never had a friend like you. This pen pal letter writing we do back-and-forth is amazing. I am literally obsessed . I too look forward to the day when you write letter number 100, and 200 and 600 and 1200 etc. I’m your friend for life if you’ll have me. If so, thanks for making a spot for me.
I know that I’m a bit of a clown. I enjoy the way we tease each other back and forth in our letters. Teasing is dangerous because you never know for sure if you’re stepping on anybody’s toes. I swear I would never ever want to step on your toes. I can only avoid doing that with your guidance. Gen, I love the subtle way you steer me. I feel that it works both ways. I feel I steer you as well . How wonderful it is to be doing this with you . I know this was sudden, but I felt a friend connection with you almost immediately when we met online, strange but true. but I didn’t know how to express that and I didn’t want to say something to frighten you away. I’m beginning to feel safe in your friendship. I have to tell you that right now, I’m very very vulnerable. I tried to be funny in our letter writing but as an empathic person, I worry that I might’ve offended you somehow while I was trying to be funny. They say an empathetic person is always questioning themselves among other things. I feel a bit like the guy that does a high dive off of the bridge just to impress the girl with his stupidity. I value you so much my dear friend that I’m a little bit afraid I’m exposing you to my idiocy. I am scared of wrong first impressions. That’s only a tiny part of me . Maybe by next Christmas , I can prove there is more to me than silly .. while I am trying to dazzle you with my life. I know I’ve created the impression that you can’t take me anywhere but keep in mind, I was just trying to impress you with the silly behavior that made you feel that way. You and your guy and me and Joan can go out to dinner and I will be a perfect gentleman…………….. that is until you say something funny and make milk come out of my nose..
I’ve gotten just a little bit, to be thinking about Jesus lately. I’m not used to praying but I’m going to say a little prayer.
Thank you Jesus, on this beautiful Christmas Day, for all of the wonderful people in my life. My wife and a few oh so dear cousins and other friends that I love . But, right now, Jesus, thank you for sending me Genevieve. It would break my heart to lose any of my friendships, but I would feel such hurt if I were to lose hers. Please preserve our perfect friendship and never take it away . I put so much faith in friendships . You can’t blame me Jesus, your friendship has been wonderful this year for me.
How did I do ?
