Beautiful in it's simplicity, you are a very talented writer because this is so simple and raw. That is not easy to do. I struggle with that constantly. I wish I could convey an abstract thing to you. Half of my life was the stuff of suicides, but I see it as wonderfully bittersweet. Now I delight to remember things that let me cry. Crying is so good for you. Look up Japanese crying therapy. It changes how you feel inside when you say, that's just life. All of the horrible things in my life are now just delightful fuel for writing stories and poetry, so I won .